My Nocturnal Insomnia

Ever tried going to bed tweaked or after eating cheese or a really good film. Bad idea.

I have become nocturnal again. Yes I have f**ked up my body clock again.
Every holiday I have I do it without thinking. Why I hear you cry?
I go to bed at about midnight and stay awake until about 3 or 4 and then wake up at midday. This has been going on for a long time and now it is my sleep pattern
While I am awake I think about are those things that should, could or will happen and also those strange things that you only think about when you are tired like say:
> how significant you are in the universe
> what would an alien look like
> would the Hulk ever go grey.
These are the type of questions that keep me up at night. It is a good time to think because everywhere is quiet and you get no distractions (apart from when the people out the back have a all night barbecue) so you can think for hours and change subject as many times as you like.
This state of nocturnal-ness is annoying. So far reading doesn’t help or listening to music. I think it might be liked in some way to stress (where from), worry or even my subconscious.
I will slowly turn into a vampire at this rate. J
I will have to practice staying away from light and saying, “I want to drink your blood HAH HAH HAH HAH ” (Film) or “One sheep, Two sheep, Three sheep, Three sheep Hah hah hah hah” (Sesame streets count Dracula) in a Romanian accent.
I will go batty at this rate in about 17 days
Hahahahahahaha.

The Boredom Files

The last post was written when I was a bit pissed off at everything as you can tell. The day out was fine on reflection but when I wrote the post and saved it to my PC my mind must have been in a different place.
This could be due to numerous things mainly boredom. I have tried many ways of combating this main cause of depression (I am not depressed by the way). These include:
1 Playing on my PC (PC 5 years old and keeps crashing)
2 Playing on my PlayStation (Bored now)
3 Trying to write a Novel (many attempts, cannot seem to start good)
4 Went to the cinema (once)
5 Gardening (got to knackered)
6 Eating (not the best one I admit)
7 Getting Drunk (took it to an extreme (wont do that again))
8 Listened to music (My music library is very small (850 songs))
9 Going for days out (need to try this one more and venture further a field)
10 Played Magic the gathering, Vampire the masquerade and other card games
11 Tidying up and hovering my bedroom (1 full day)

By the sounds of this list I have done all sorts but that is not true. I find myself still aimlessly wandering about. I cannot even go for a run to get rid of any energy because I don’t have any (feeling lethargic all the time and also the weather is not that good)
I need to find something to do that does not involve money due to a lack of it at the moment. Any Suggestions?
If you can think of something for me to do until I get my exam results post something on the website I will get the message
Could take up a Martial Art (Kendo)

Anyway I will keep you posted on my boredom and ways that I have found to combat it.

The Cleveland Shananigan

This is a bog about the events that took place on the Saturday the 23 of July.
Samayra’s idea was to go to the Cleveland show on this day. Not a bad idea I though it would help me to enjoy my time out from college. So I agreed to meet her and Francis at midday in the bus station.
So I set my alarm clock for 9 in the morning thinking that I would be up in time. Big mistake I turned my alarm off at 9 and went back to sleep until 10:30. So when I eventually go up I had to get a shower and dressed before I left which I managed to do and also fit in breakfast (Spam and beans with toast). SO I set out for the bus station giving myself enough time to get there with about 5 minutes to spare.
SO when I get there is Francis stood like a lemon outside the toilets (I got there at 11:55). So we decide to talk about the amazing program that is family guy. We talk for about 15 minutes and realize that Samayra still has not turned up. We phone her to see where she is. So she tells us she will be about 2 minutes at 12:30 she finally decides to show up. So we talk for about 2 minutes and then phone Jemma. Jemma says that she will be about 45 minutes. So we decide to trail the town looking for somewhere to eat. Sam and Fran eventually decide to go to MacDonald’s. So we are sat in MacDonald’s and Jemma phones us so we all meet up in the centre of town.
We decide that walking to the Cleveland show would take a long time so we go to the bus station. We find the right stand (12) and wait for about 10 minutes (an eternity in the hellhole that is Middlesbrough’s bus station. When the bus arrives it leaves instantly (so quickly that we cannot get on it). So we go to stand 6 and wait another 10 minutes for a bus (Now it is 2:05)
We get the bus to James Cook Hospital and get dropped of at Stewarts Park (90p). We go to the Cleveland show it costs £5 to enter (that’s a lot). So we look around and talk to Antonio who looked really pleased to see us (NOT). He said that he had jumped the fence. This meeting is what Sam had wanted all day. The show itself was bad nothing for us to do it was more of a young kids and adults day out. We did look at the rabbits and also the chickens (there were some fucking big chickens I’ll tell thee). We wandered around aimlessly. After we had done this we went home on the bus (£1.50 due to paying the correct fare second time).
WHAT A FANTASTIC DAY OUT. Not. We could have done so much more for example go for a meal or to the cinema. I will never go to something that Sam organises last minute again. Not that it was boring it was nice to see them all but we just aimlessly wandered about which meant I felt as if I had to take charge (Yes me Mr. Indecisive as Chris calls me).
All in all not bad but could have been much better. Better planning and some idea of where we were going might have helped.

The photos from the party

The photos from the party are quite amusing. They all show people having lots of fun on the chars and playing pool.

None of them are bad. If anyone wants to see them they have to see me for them because they are not digital.

One of the things that did depress me was two of the photos. They were of cassie at christmas and are the most recent pictures. She was looking very old. I am so lonley at home now no one to wake me up for food or to scratch me to death. Sob Sob. I supose life goes on though.

If I had have been sane I would have asked Carl or Chris to take my camera as I had another film in my pocket. Foresight is something I need to gain.

I have ran out things to say so I will depart for a while hope to see you all soon.

The Unofficial Party

Well this was an interesting thing. I would suggest that if you want to throw a decent party that you need something for you guests to do. Now this was not the case at mine. All we did was sit around and talk. I had one game of pool with Carl who owned me. This talking was occasionally punctuated with the passing of balloon. Which means that it was not always the most interesting party

The main problem with starting a party at three o’clock is thee fact that it means that there is a long time to get drunk. Now as you know I have had some very bad experiences with alcohol. This was no exception. Scott and Carl decided to try and get my drunk. Mission successful I’d say. I was ok until about 5 when my head went flimsy. The last thing I remember was someone asking me the time, which was half past six. After that I have no recollection (probably a good thing).
I somehow managed to go the bathroom after my parents had left (due to being to concerned to stay (Bless)). I then sat on the bog while Scott and Carl apparently talked outside the cubicle. I then decided to Technicolor yawn (quite a lot apparently). This seemed to disturb Scott and Carl who phoned the ambulance. At this point I was winking in and out of consciousness. I remember Chris having to climb over and open the cubicle. I was then passed a bucket (insert more yawns). The paramedics arrived and asked what was going on which it was explained. The bloke peered around the door and asked me to pull my trousers up (I had actually been on the toilet). I remember crying an awful lot (manic depression from the alcohol). I eventually got home at about 9 got into a cold bath with the help of my dad and mark from around the corner and then I slept. I woke at 11 watched top gear and Malcolm in the middle. I then went to bed and woke up at about nine o’clock waking up occasionally due to noise.
I feel so much better now but I think I will curve off the beer for now. I hope everyone had a good time and apparently after I left everyone carried on partying. Damn good of them I thought (no sarcasm)
Thanks guys. I will remember my birthday for a while even though my birthday is actually this Thursday.

Rules for future parties
Not more than 4 shots of strong shit
Eat before hand
Find a game to play
Don’t leave in an ambulance

If all the above rules are followed fun should be had by all.

A Readers Digest

At the moment it is all go in the world of Adam McConnell so here is a quick roundup of the world.
David Sykes is leaving Middlesbrough
Dave has finally set a date for him leaving the boro. He will be missed. I hope everything goes well.
The nanny state of Britain suffers at the hands of its own people
The terrorist attacks could have been worse than they were. The whole system could have been made to collapse. This is the view of an optimist. I hope that this will end soon and that the TV will stop taking off the programs I like for news bulletins. I also hope that this stops soon as violence only seems to anger Bush even more and no one wants and angry Bush.
My birthday party on the 17th (18th)
On Sunday the 17th of July I will be having an 18th birthday party. Should be fun (I hope). Birthday is on the 21st of July so technically I am still not allowed to drink but who cares. All of my college mates and gaming mates are invited so that should be fun to watch (anarchists and right wing people clash with people they have never met and try to start conversation (gamers meet college mates) and also the problem of most of the college people being girls and all of the gamers being in love with their PC or Playstation a bit too much and could tell you what a diabolic edict is good for doing). Also no one is turning up on time due to work and other things. I need a minimum of 20 people to go and I am not sure how many will turn up.
This should be intresting.
My dad has started to care for the birds and it is driving me mental
Since my cat died there has been nothing for dad to look after. So in his infinite wisdom he has decided to look after the birds in the back garden. This means spending about £4 a week on food and also protecting them form the cats in the area. It has become his obsession and it is driving me crazy. Now all I want for my birthday is a kitten because I am now starting to get lonely at home on my own when my parents are at work. I also love kittens they are so cute and cuddly. It is now also for my dad as well. He is allergic to cats and dogs (quite impressively) so a small cat would give his immune system chance to get used to the oils in the cats fur.
I still need to find a job (looking better)
Macmillan College is deciding whether or not to give me a paid job as an engineering technician. It is a simple gofer job but nice and relaxing and as usual they listen to popmaster at 10. As does everyone else in the working world so I have been told.
If not I can always get a job at the BT billing service (£7 an Hour, hell yeah)
I am still bored out of my skull and I now cannot go into college
Last time I went into college one of the staff there said that I should not come in now that I have left. This is due to something that she did not explain. She was the one that told me to go and see Mr O’Connell about the technician job in my year out.
Samayra
As you all know the reason I went into college was to see her and she never showed the two times I was in. She is meant to be repeating the year and does not want to go into college and so far to my knowledge has not been in since we all left (me, Francis, Scott, Dominic and Farrah). Good damn it woman get thee to a collegery

And so end the readers digest

I have come back to college

This is the second time I have back into college and no one that I know is here.

As I got into college this morning samayra texted me to say that it was the year 12 bridging course and that she would not be in. This means that I am now in college at 10 minutes past 8 without anyone to talk to.

I can only write the idea of how pissed off I am...

Well so far the holliday that I am having from college is (how shall we put it) BORING. I have nothing to do appart from find a job and lounge about. I am so bored that I have started to play on my 4 year old never upgraded broken PC and seens as I have given my playstation to chris I cannot play on them. All my playstation games bore me and so do my PC games. This means I have started to exist only to do nothing it is slowly driving me insane.

I now have the wonderfull pleasure of waiting to see if I have got into Hull university. I get my exam results on the 16th of August and need a day off whetever I am doing to sort them out.

I am currently waiting for a text or phone call from samayra so I can at least vent some of my anger.

BUT as a civilised kind of person I will not shout or call names.

I was duped I tell you