My inner D + D character

As you all know I am a Gamer and as such I have been exposed to some weird ideas but this one is one of mine. All the gamers will understand what i am tring to get at.
When you walk around your own broing and dreary life you start to think about who you are and where you are (well I do).
The following is the inner representation of what my soul thinks I am in the Dungeons and Dragons sence. Here Is the best way to do it. Think deep and hard about your:
Race, Alignment, Class, Armour

Asimar - A celestial creature. One of good. Not saying that I am a god like being but they can have one feature which my soul says I have. They can have eagle wings for soaring above the world. I know what you are thinking but it makes sence to me. When ever I streach it feel like my back is going to split open and a pair of wings are gonna surface. It could just be the sign of a good strech.
Chaotic Good (rebel) - My persona is one of a chaotic person. I hate order and will rebel if given chance and I live by own morals and they are good in nature. I also have the tendancy to think outside the sphere (I have got rid of the box and rounded the edges) about things like war and strife.
Monk - I am a scholar and one of wandering information. Like most monks I seek enlightenment in the world and hope to one day become a better person. I am also capeable of much much more than people think. I never give 100% and never have because I know to leave my potential well alone and just keep it as potential (the possibility of what I could do rather than when I go all out what I could acheive)
Deamon Armour -I am in deamon Armour. This is armour of evil (represents the trickster outer casing) but has a very good AC and looks like a deamon. It also has claws which finnish of the mental look in my head as a D+D character. I am always manifested in my mind as with claws and horns.I also represents the hard outer shell of me. Once you crack it open its gooey on the inside.
All in all i look like the extremes of the world and Angel with a devils casing.

All the gamers out there give it a go and see what you come up with

Can Deaf People Hear The Voices Too?

Just before watching a film a while ago I had this thought. Now I know what you are thinking that if brutally harsh but hey listen to this.

When you talk you mind bounces round the vocalizastion of what you are going say. That means that you can hear your own voice be it an imaginary one that anounces what you are going to say just before you say it. Also when you are thinking the voice in your head tells you what you are hearing so you body acts from this voice in head.

The voice could be one of reason, Concience or ideas. Now when you think about it like this then it is possible for the deaf person to hear the voices. Now the other is does that change when you go deaf does your perspective change and does the voice shut up.

Now imagine you are deaf (hearing impared) how would you survive the lack of noise would you invent differnt people to talk to while you removed yourself from the real world. If you did invent these new voices would they come with there own personalitys.

I do not mean any of the above in a harsh and disrespectfull way. I was just a wierd chain of thought that got me thinking too much again. I told Ollie and he freaked out. Strange some of the thoughts I have eh?

Film: Jarhead

Excelent. I have never enjoyed a film as much as this one in a long time. It was so good the cinema was silent from start to finish. I sugest you go and see it at the cinema for full effect.

The opening of the film is american boot camp with the best style of intro an arogant drill sargent who decides to pick on the main character. I love these types of things and it reminds me Heartbreak Ridge a film with Clint Eastwood as the best drill sargent ever. A perfect intro!

It is war in the style of the best film ever "American Beauty" (Kevin Spacey Roxors). It will make you laugh, it will make you cry and it will make you think all at once. Some of the cinematic choices for effects were amazing. The best one was where a artilary shell goes of near him (the main character) and the only noise you get is of the sand hitting him in the face. There is no other noise and he is the only thing on screen. It was amazing to watch. And also watch out for the oil fields bit as it is realy accurate.

A jarhead is the standerd issue recuits removed brain that is to be filled with the knowledge of a soldier. The film charts Saddam Hussain's invasion of Kuwait and the american armys presence there from the view of one man. They never se combat so for those of you epecting a full on war film forget it. It is a psycological mind game of waiting for the order to go and fight. They never actually get involved in real fighting. It is based on a novel of a real life account of the army.

My god the film gave me goosebumps all over. I would give it :
*****
A cinematograpic genius has returned and cinema was born again.

My one beef of the film is that Samuel L Jackson did not get the place of Jamie fox. Jackson was made for that role and you can tell when you watch it, but all the other actors were perfect and watch out for the spotter who went to the John Malkovich school of less is more acting.

Borbon 3.1 Update

Over the past few weeks I have not updated here so here goes with the shit tons of info.
University
Scarbrough Said no (no reason made bastards)
Bradford interview went Ok but the uni itself reminds me of Middlesbrough college as a uni so I dont think I want to go there. Only time and fofers will tell (they still need to let me know how the interview went and whether they are giving me an offer)
Got another interview on Wednesday fro Leeds trinity All saints. Should be a good lol with my dad as a personal cheuffer.
Ribs
Much better now but still finding it hard to lay on them. Stopped taking the pain killers. They seriously fucked with my head. No I keep giving hem to people and because they are so strong they get everyone the same. Should not realy but they dont half get rid of headaches. I am sure though that my ribs have set themselves awkwardly.
Job
Still going ok. Have to be in at 9:30 till 3 on sat now though due to different groups. Getting paid about £40 a week now though. I still cannot complain. I just never get a sleep in and its starting to show on the outside as a lathergic mess.
Exams
Had three exams on tuesday. 2 Biology were dead easy but the computing was quicker to do. I then when to the games club after being silent for a day and after having 4 cans of coke. I was hyper beyond belief. I have never seen so many people think i was crazy as then and I even met a new bloke as a person who wants to play d and d. I hope I have done OK in them or better. I think I have. We'll See though.
MP3 Search
Got the new sony walkman mp3 player £199. It is not to bad 20Gb and 20+hr battery life. Be warned you have to have a internet connection of better than 1.5mb in order to download the software needed in order to put music on the player. THis was not mentioned to me when I bought it and I want to tell sony off for not saying so. Where and how would I go about doing that, I wonder how many have been returned for that reason. Well I had to use works net connection in order to get the correct thingy. It also updated my firmware, Neat eh?
Falling In Love
I have now developed feeling for someone close to me and I am not sure how to deal with them (the feelings that is, I know how to deal with them so to speak (not in a dirty way you sikos)). Its happened before with the same person so some of you will know who. God Damn hormones. They are playing with my emotions and also my relationships with others. (This one was to help me get it off my chest)
Kittens
We are looking after my cousins cats for 4 months while there new house is built. Buiscuit and Boo are about 6 and one is affectionate and the other not so (vicious little bastard). This will help them out and if its to many cats for my dad (he is allergic mildly) then we will give one to my auntie. I just ahve a strange feeling that this is not going to work because of family ties and different thin g but we will see eh?
Arguments
At the moment my parents are arguing quite a lot and it is doing my head in. I dont know what they are arguing about or the reason why they are at each other throats and I hate the fact that it has been going on for a week now. I dont want to get involved but it is starting to distract me and piss me off.

I think that is it in the world of the borbon up to date.
Caio

Concerning All those people who said They would not vote for me due to my political views on the EU

Ok this is the reason for joining Europe.

Can you not tell I am for a unified world order. Join the EU means the Market and money. The pound is strong and it is crippling our economy. If we join the euro then we would be in easy acces for european countrys rather than american ones. If we join the euro it would have no more of a change than a few rules and currency (in basics). We are already a multicultural society run by a tolitarian right wing government like france anyway so what would change? Also who is more evil in the eyes of the majority America or Europe.At least Europe is a group of banded countrys. America is on big country and they think they need to be heard. They have been independant of Brittan for about 400 years and now they want to rule the world.

This is the reason for the removal of america.
America is a corporate run machine with an agenda for money and to further themselves. If all americans were like me, 4 of the major wars in the world would not have started. I am a pacifist and say that Amricans race for the arms is a futile one (you cannot hug the world with nuclear arms). They have become paranoid and want everyone to be like them. They have done some of the worlds biggest attrocitys (mainly trying to modernise tribes and convert the world to christianity) in the attemp to aim for this goal. Who would like Bible basher Bush as a friend (hes like a pornstar always trying to ram it down your throat). He is a christian Idealist and a member of the bible belt one of the most intolerant polaces in the world. He is no better than a muslim extremist, in fact they are very alike in many ways.

OY SIMON If we have no army we would not retaliate by arms which is what they want (rebels). We would not be in Iraq and so not in the fireing line according to Muslim extremists (well less so because alot of us are still christians). We are a multicultural society anyway, and people have views, but when they realise that war is not the anwser then the world will be a better place without all the which race of people is better argument.

As for those vetran defending us agaist invasion for 1500 years. Who exactly in Britton is 100% brittish. No one. We have been invaded constantly by religion and philosophy so our ideals are now differnet to what they were say 10 years ago. This is not always progress but most of those men had different beleifs. For example for 1400 of those years they belived that women were inferior and should not have the vote. Now they would all recognise brittain as a land mass but not as an isolationist society which is what they fought for. We had an empire that contained many countrys and religions and none of them were free from our rule. Is enslavement of others worth fighting for in our modern day ideals. The imprisonmaent of whole nations by us was wrong and all because we planted a flag, well fucking great what a better world we created there. Nothing was good about the comonwealth which thankfully was disbanded. And For Fuck Sake Who Is Truly Brittish anymore who can say that they can trace there ancestors back to when we first became human living on this rock we the United Kingdom?

More Evil is done in the name of the greater good than for progresss. Religious Fanatisicm is due to a missunderstanding of beleifs and an argument that can never be resolved. "Love Thy Neighbour but if they are Jewish persecute them" acording to the christians for they killed Jesus our lord (not that many beleive that) . For one persons mistake must an entire beleif sytem be persecuted. Who teaches ethics anymore?

Why not just be the best you can be and then when judgement comes you know that personally you have been the best you could be without predjudice or hate. If you dont go to heaven then to bad but what is the real religion. All of the 4 major religions belive in a god who is the same person. Go figure.
The world is a fucked up place lets join together as comrades and stop war and stop strife and then we will all be happy. No one is better no man is an Island and no one is superior.
That is why I say hurray for communism and for what I belive in. Am I a bad person for thinking this NO. Do I have hate NO. Will I kill anyone NO. Is equality bad NO.
No comment on this you ignorant bastards and look at it from my point of view

Communism is only bad from an Weastern Corporate and Capitalist viewpoint. And as history is written by the winner. So who do you think comes out worse in the history books.

I will end this rant there. You can comment on this post just remeber to back up your viewpoints

Of All The Uni's In All The World

Last night I recived the final information for my universitys. I got a letter from Sunderland last night. As I got in exhausted it was lying there on the mat.
They all want an interview with me.
So that is Sunderland, Hull, Leeds, Bradford, UCE and Edge Hill all half saying yes.
They all want an interview (I have still turned down Edge Hill though). This is looking very promising. The reason for wantging the interview is to see what my English skills are like and also to see what I am like in groups.
The first interview is on wednesday for hull. This is my prefered place of entry I just need the grades in order to get in. Hopefully the second time is the charm and I will get in by miles with my B, C, D (about 200 UCAS points).
This means I will have to be more demanding on myself to get the grades I know I can.

Another Interview

I have got another interview for a uni today. That takes the total up to five and one yet to reply.
The culprit is Sunderland. I have even refulsed on einterview due to not being arsed rules. It was in Lancashire a bit of a way.
So i now have interviews on the
18/01/06 Hull
19/01/06 Bradford
01/02/06 Leeds Trinity All Saints
and 1 canceled (Edge Hill) and another to be re-aranged (UCE)

I am so good this year. I got 3 interviews last year and only 3 offers from 6 unis.
I think a different personal statemant has made the difference.
I hope they go ok and I have to chose between offers but the world works in mysterious ways and the future is unclear and uncertain.
But I will teach this boy master Yoda and he will become a jedi

"I find you lack of faith .... Disturbing Admiral" Darth Vader to the Admiral Vayar (soon to be dead)

Ninja McConnell

As a bloke I think about death and fighting alot. The main thing that is starting to worry me though is the fact that I would love to carry a pair of concealed daggers around college with me. Something like a wakazashi or small simitar would be great. Hidden behind my back. Then I could walk around and know that if I ever got into a fight I would win.

The strange thing is as I walk around college I start to feel more and more violent. I could be the new pills or something else more sinister (being possesed would do it). I imagine myself in a ninja outfit stalking the corridors of Macmillan with the two daggers drawn just lacing into people. I dont care who they are just as long as death and carnage reigns and that panic is strife before the masses.

I then imagin using all my ninjitsu knowledge to kill all the cops that enter the school.

I have no idea why I think this. Is it healthy and do I need a shrink.

If I was PM

As you all know I am now into the politics of the world. I cringe at anything Iraq does, I seethe quitley at the Americans and I am becoming more scared of missing Uranium.

So in my infinite wisdom I have decided to run for PM. Will you back me?

Read the below manifesto and decide

--> Sever ties with America as a lonesome bully is a lonley and unhappy one. It would also allow changes in the world like no more wars and less capitalist scum.

--> Abolish the Brittish army as we dont need them and they cost Billions per year. The only reason why we have employed soldiers is for other countrys. But keep The SAS as we only need one strike force to deal with our own problems and they are the best.

--> Join The EU more in order to help maintain ties with Europe. We need some trade routes and also some imports but I think that China will be able to help us there.

--> Withdraw from Ireland as there is no need for the conflict and it would allow them to decide whether they want to be a country as a part of England or not.(More Peace)

--> Withdraw From Iraq as our troops are not wanted and due to the fact that it is dangerous. (more peace). We did not need to be there in the first place and we should not be there now interfereing where we are not wanted. It was the first major conflict of the 20th century and hopefully the last but hey thats not likely.

--> Abolish the Army by 2010 in order to help with world peace and also show that we have no need for them in the 21st century. We only need compromise, knowledge, Understanding and patience to solve our problems.

--> MAKE America join the Kyoto agreement in order to help save the planet. IN our country we would plant more trees and also help to maintain woodland with bigger government grants.

--> Make the world abolish Atomic Weapons for the are an unecisary evil that should be removed in order for peace to continue.

--> Create more taxes for people with more than 100 Acres of land, £100,000 income a year in order to make the country a more equal place witha better class system . It would also help remove the £20 billion pound deficit in the books. It would thin the population of britton due to people going to tax havens. This might affect the ecconomy but it is not fair and equal at the moment so any idea is an improvement.

--> I would also pledeg more money to charitys and try and reduce world porverty and also cthe high child morality.

I am an Anarchist and will make a difference as I have the same political views as Gandi.

I might sign up to greenpeace looking at the current save the world from evil dictators like Bush

So VOTE BORBON

Luis Bunuel

Looking again on the quote of the day on my gmail account (see above for address). I found a new man to add to my site. He is better than the last one because he is more me (if you get what I mean). His name is Luis Bunuel and he is a worse thinker but a better quoter.
Anyway heres some quotes and the link is HERE to the site

A paranoiac, like a poet, is born, not made.

Fortunately, somewhere between chance and mystery lies imagination, the only thing that protects our freedom, despite the fact that people keep trying to reduce it or kill it off altogether.

God and Country are an unbeatable team; they break all records for oppression and bloodshed.

In the name of Hippocrates, doctors have invented the most exquisite form of torture ever known to man: survival.

Thank God I'm an atheist.

As you can see this bloke is just like me a slave to the remorsles grind but a rebel who will win through. He has the same views about politics and also mental states and God.
Check him out!

Having Problems attracting girls

Looking about on eBaums world and I noticed a stupid advert. This was a link saying having troubles attracting girls. SO I cliked on it for a laugh to see what shite they could come up with this time. Well I was shoked at what I found. It was not dirty it was a product of imence proportions. The page it opened up was for a guy who had gone around testing out different types of pheromones in aftershaves. His whole site was a praise to this one product.
The product was called Phelure.
http://www.pherlure.com/
It was a proper aftershave that you put on and it contains a pheromone that is irrisistable to women. The funny thing is the fact that the website has pictures of real blokes with women. When I say real blokes I mean the ones that should have no problem with women even without any help. The confident type with a disheveled and masculine look. The web site even has buyers comments and the product is a steal for about £50.
I could not do anything but laugh. I think that if youre that desperate you could pay a little bit more and get an escort.
Shocking thing is though it has sciency stuff on the first page.
How sad!!!
The fact is how tempted are you to click the link you sad and lonely gamers and geeks. If i find out any of you have bought it I will take the piss something chronic.

Bad Images

Every weekend I look on the net at a couple of net sites
www.b3ta.com
www.gorillamask.net
and a few others like enwhore and Ebaums world. Every now and then they surprise me with to harsh an image. Like the one shown. What type of sick bastard would photoshop something like this. Yes its kind of funny but why do it. Wouldnt you get more stick from people who did not know you for being a racist bastard. I hate racists. And this type of thing anoys me and the thought behind it and only for a few laughs.

Why can we just get along. Everyone is different but why do something like that.

"If we all take and eye for an eye the whole world would be blind" Mahatma Gandi

Mind you you can always find things like the following which you just cannot help but laugh at. The following was an entry for a company that makes something ordinary branching out.

Missing My Cassie

last night when I got home I was thinking about how I would never be greeted by a loud and demanding cat sat on the doorstep. She was the lovliest animal ever.
As it turns out though when I got in Shirley (round the corner) had posted through a leaflet for a cat sanctuary. My mam had seen it and was phoning the number on the leaflet to see if we could go and visit. It turns out we could.

So we set out to wolviston to see the cats. What an awfull experience that was. The woman had about 20 cats in a space no bigger than a garden shed. They were all together in the dark with loads of food in bowls and also a small heater. The place was not fit for habitation. The cats were all sat in there own baskets and lacked company of people.
They were all lovely and gorgeous cats (one grey cat was wonderful) but they were in an enclosed space with a load od newspaper. One of them had flu but according to woman they were all inoculated. The worst part was the age range of the cats. They ranged from 18 months to 15 years. She was selling the cats for £35 pound. They were not worth it they were all malnourished and all covered in hair from not being brushed or stroked.

I was horrified by the experience and would never treat an animal like that. I want the siamese gray one and so do my parents but it apparently needs other cats as company. Tonight we are going with my gran to see if she wants a lovely natured tortoise shell one.

The funny thing about the 20 minutes we were ther it was like being in a car showroom with someone who needs the commision to live. She wanted to give us an old cat of about 15 so that they would not die there but they all looked so close to death it was shocking.

I want the grey one but the woman tried to give us two and with my dad being alergic to too much hair it is not possible.

I need a cat because being in without my parents gives our house a dark formboding feel and I am sure the house is haunted.

Perfection

I am not perfect, but I am so close it scares me. At the moment though I am a bit accident prone and have managed to huirt myself at least once every day. At the moment I have

2 Broken Ribs

1 Bruised Joint

4 Blisters (new shoes need wearing in)

1 Open friction burn (off the wallpaper)

1 Fukked up neck (have not been swimming in a while)

And to top it all off at the moment I have poor mans insomnia. I am constantly tired and can get to sleep I just dont have the time. Ironic eh?

As mentioned this year I will be using Ra's Al Ghul as a role model (as a change from making resolutions) but so far I am as about as indistitructable as an egg. So far then I have probabilly broken a few of the resolutions

This year I would also like to try and acheive the following:

> Independance from the parents (Cut the umbillical chord)

> Gain a sence of true self (find god)

> Do well in my exams (close ever so close)

> Go to University (well thats a definate yes so far)

> Be a better man (yes I am a man suprisingly)

I know that some of these are not the most interesting things and that some of them are hard to do but I chose to do them not because they are easy but because I need to try and aim for something.

At the moment the Unis are giving me Interviews and I just hope for the likes of me that I can again get into Hull. The campus is still the best but we we'll see.

This is the year to find myself more than anything and to not give into peer pressure. I will make a stand.

2 Broken Ribs and a Fucked Joint

I would kill my auntie if I had the chance but I love her dearly and would never harm her. I need to think of some way of getting her back for persuading me to go on the board for the first time outside when I slipped. The title of the blog is what happened and what the doctor said. I am now on co-codamol for the pain which is 30gm of codeine phosphate and 500gm of paracetamol in each one. They are strong as fuck and make the left side of my brain go into overdrive and the right one sleep. This means that my usual fucked up self rears its ugly head and fucks with peoples brains. I have been described more random than Mattie when this happens and managed to seriously lose grip with the real world. It is only a small derivative of morphine so you can imagine what happens when I am on Morphine. At the moment the tablets are working and I can survive on about 3 a day rather than the recommended 8. You can imagine what I would have been like on 8 a day.
I am at the moment resting so that it will heal quicker and trying to bear the pain. I am milking my sympathy from my parents for what its worth and seem to just keep wining at them to keep them on there toes. They are bored now so I might have to stop going ow so often. Anyway it should take about 4 to 5 weeks to fully heal and they cannot do anything but hope it heals by itself and give me painkillers. Bastard NHS. When I am older I am definitely going Private even if I cannot afford it would still give me a better piece of mind.

The Death Of Large Part Of My Life

Nothing to serious. After a year and half my new MP3 player has died. The hard drive will no longer work and crashes every now and then. This now means that I can no longer listen to music at college and have my music blasting to the world as I travel around. This was the best and first thing that I have ever ernt and bought myself. It was the best in the market at the time and is still way better than the new version of the IPod (sorry for the foul language). It was 20 GB and had contained at its peak about 1400 songs. So as my next major purchase was going to be an new suit for college so I can be as smart in dress as I am in the head but now it will have to be a new mp3 player. It’s a big shame but necessary in order to get me through my frees. I know that is not that important but too much stimulus helps me to concentrate. I know that Gemma will be glad when I get one because I will constantly talk to her and distract her while I am working. Not that she minds such wonderful company (ha!) and as she has the same frees as me she will notice the difference and will no longer have to try and guess the song and ask me turn it down.

Ra's Al Ghul

New Years resolution is to become a better person with a better sense of identity. Now I know you thinking what does this have to do with the league Of Assassins leader. Well in order for me to change I decided to take a new role model. A Last year was the Dark Knight but that became a bit to self centred and dark so this year its Ra's Al Ghul. He represents all of my news year resolutions in one go.
· He is Immortal (a good aim for the year)
· He is strong and fit (could do with some of that to help my fat arse into gear)
· He is a leader in martial arts (well I need a new hobby)
· He has a cool beardy thing (always wanted one but we'll see)
· He has a good family ( not sure on this one)
· He is a good leader (me all over)
· He is slow to anger (could do with more patience)
· He kicks Batman’s arse (A better year than last year)
As you can see this idea might work as a new way of doing new years resolutions. Mind you I am not sure about the Goatee and the hair but we'll see.
If you want to add you own role model for the new I would find it interesting to see who you pick....
If you have no idea who the Mighty Ra’s Al Ghul is watch the film Batman Begins and he is played by the man that is Liam Neeson. But for the best idea of who he is read the Hush comic and others done in which he is contained he is a Dark Knight regular.

Urban (Muther Fukka)

You probably wont remember the fact that couple of months ago I was looking for my place in the world. In the end I worked out that I was a Beatnik (love of Jazz, Politics and Eastern Civilization). I then did a test to see my political standing in society. It was worked out that I am a Communist Anarchist (Anarchist Libertarian). Recently though I have found another thing to add to the list and that is my taste in music has been defined. Before I used to be an all round kind of guy who liked everything. When I was last in HMV though I found all the music I loved was in one section Urban. This explains a lot not. Most of my music is Urban (Basement Jaxx, EMINEM, Faithless, Fatboy Slim, Gorillaz, Leftfield, Lemon Jelly, Massive Attack, Moby, The Avalanches, The Chemical Brothers and The Prodigy). So now I am even more complex.
I am a mentally unstable Left Wing Anarchist who believes in eastern culture with a taste for electronic rap music and with a substantial knowledge in all things fantasy.
Nice Mix don’t you think and probably soon to be vegetarian. Shit I am turning into Mattie (OMG can the world survive two of us not sure about his religion or mental state though!).
I still like popular music and mainly Rock (not EMO (go and find a knife and some unfriendly girl who will dump you because of your hair and emotional attachment)). When I say rock I mean Classic and Metal. The more noise the better over stimulus is great fun and I found I can concentrate better with more things going on around me.

Twinkles

How may people do you know that have a twinkle in there eyes? It is a thing that most happy have or people who know something that you don't have.
I lost mine at about the this time last year. I got severely depressed due to a mountain of different things. Mainly it was due to a lack of someone to be with. I am 18 and single and have never been in a relationship. How sad is that. The main reason for this is the fact that I am a spineless bastard and I have no courage to talk to people who I don’t know. Oh and I am a geek and cannot hide it. I found my spark again eventually but could never figure out why.
I know lots of people and each one has there own quirks and lovable features. I am a caring person and notice the people around me more that they think I do. I pick up on those things that are possible to detect with only a slight change in body language. Anger, resent, respect and the worst of all humouring. I hate people talking down to me and I also hate the liars. If you have something to say it and don’t hide (I am a hypocrite I know so sue me) its not like I would ever take offence. The only way to take notice of criticism is to know that it is given with a bitter taste and also resent. NO one ever comments on how I look, how I dress or even how I act. They accept it. I could fling shit at walls and people would just stare open mouthed. These changes are mainly noticeable in college mates but not as easy to place.
The main reason for this post is the one thing I cannot figure out. A sparkle in the top corner of the eye accompanied by a smile. The person who does it is a dear friend and I think I know them very well but this sparkle shifts everything. I have no idea what it means (or do I) and I want to know. I feel like I am being mislead for a reason and cannot figure out why?
I am slightly eschewed to the world now and this sparkle is driving me nuts (more so). I cannot help thinking about it. It’s always there. I think I can now be classed as paranoid w00t.

Falling Over

Oh I have done it this time. My Auntie wanted to see my bored and as you know I have not been out on it proper yet. So me, my Dad and my Auntie go to find some tarmac outside that is dead smooth. It was mainly me and Dad that had a go. Dad was the first to fall off. On his Arse his ego was bruised more as the skateboard slipped from underneath him as he rode. Mine was more "spectacular" to say the least.
I tried the steep ramp to the community centre and went down it. I faced the wall which was a bit imposing for me. So I tried to steer away from it encase I crashed into it. I managed but the bored slipped from under my feet as I hit terminal velocity of the piddly ass concrete ramp. As I fell I turned around to land on my chest due to trying to steer. BAD MISTAKE. I hit the concrete all at once in a large thump. OWWW MY GOD IT FUCKING HURT. I winded myself in doing so.
That was not the worst of it though I landed on my Ribcage first (Most protruding part due to pigeon chest). I have severely bruised the bottom 3 ribs on each side, scrapped both arms, torn a muscle in both arms, bruised my knees and wiplashed my neck a bit. Not bad ehh.
The thing is now my ribs hurt when I breathe and it feels like I constantly have a cat on my chest (a good analogy if you have ever experienced it) and even bloody ibuprofen won’t calm it down.
It hurts when I laugh, turn, kneel, stretch, shiver and breathe. I just hope it’s nothing serious.
That bored will not beat me though I will master it before I go to Uni.

The Crimbo Hols

Not Too bad this year. At least I got a bit more stuff than last year. The problem is the fact that most of it is a bit strange. If you know me really well I would have texted you will the biggest duff pressie I got this year. It was a fan extension for my laptop. The whole idea is that the fans on the contraption push cold air onto the laptop keeping it cool. My parents bought me it because I once complained that i hated putting my laptop on my knee because it fried my gonads. They took this to be microwave with the heat not the SAR radiation that the wireless connection releases. So I ended with a extractor fan for my laptop. I also got a book on concept cars *Drool*. What a class book but not needed for reference. I got the usual pens and chocolate as well and about £115. So not to much of a bad crimbo in that respect the problem is the following things need replacing:
Shoes
Cos my old ones are 2 years young and have laces that look like cut rope bridges.
Trainers
Skating Grip Tape has worn out the grip and they are not waterproof
MP3 Player
Its fucked. Deleted all the old songs to update it and now it wont accept some
Suit
Again 2 years young and shiny and I have lost 2 stone since getting it
Console
I am sooooo Bored I need something to do on a night. X-box 360
CD's
I need more music. I have 46 Cd's (proper) and I like so much more

As You can see I would need about £750 to get up to the Cd's I need the cash desperately.
I hope to get it over time and hope that nothing goes tits up in the mean time.
Donations Welcome